In January before things went crazy I was online looking at cross stitch things. I came across a wonderful little set of designs that I very much loved.
Here they are shown in a group. I wanted to stitch them individually. I thought they were so precious. Each of the months has a virtue, at least one sheep and a heart.
As many of you know, I recently started cross stitch again. These seemed small and perfect. I broke my bank and ordered them. They came and I was in love with them even more.
I called the needle shop in Osage and asked them to send the fabric for them. Happily they are not done in specialty threads to no added cost there. I was so excited to start stitching.
About then is when we found out that Kramer has lung cancer. Just before we left for out first stay, I bundled everything up for the first month and took it with us a waiting room project.
This is the first one I stitched…
It so matched exactly how I was feeling. I was hopeful. I had hope that everything would be okay.
I had a miserable time stitching it. That border plus my lack of experience working on linen plus the weave of the fabric had me struggling. Several times as Kramer saw me ripping out stitches he would say, “why do you keep working on that?” That was easy for me to answer. I am NOT giving up HOPE. I will not give up on hoping that all of this will be okay.
It was then that I realized I was hoping, praying and stitching my life and feelings into this little piece. I can’t tell you how many times I ripped out the stitches. I can’t tell you how frustrated I felt with the stitching. At times, I did feel like I wanted to give up on it but I refused. It’s not perfect. It doesn’t match the chart stitch by stitch…but it is together and looks good.
That is exactly what I hope for all of that is happening in my life right now. I’m not looking for perfection but I am looking for something pieced together and okay.
I’m on to my next one in the series….LOVE.
I think this one is very appropriate for me right now too. I’m going to have to love Kramer through this. We’re going to have ups and downs as we travel down this road and loving him is the only way we’re going to make it through.
I also think LOVE is appropriate as I don’t believe I have ever felt so loved in my entire life. Hubby feels that way too. So many people have reached out, said a prayer, offered a kind word. It’s unbelievable how wonderful the outpouring of support has been.
My next one after that is COURAGE. Hmmm….I think that one might be appropriate by the time I get to that one as well. Courage is something I’m sure we’ll need to find as the next steps in this come.
I’ll be stitching my way through all of this. There are other gems that will be with me along the way….patience, peace, faith, simplicity….towards the end of the series is gratitude and joyfulness. I can’t wait to get to that part of this journey in both stitching and our life trip.
Amazing, isn’t it, how this series of cross stitch came into my life just when I needed it most…just in time to “stitch my life into words”.