I haven’t even been close to anything crafty….well I take that back. I did clean off the counter in the dining room. This was HEAPED with cross stitch stuff that needed to be sorted and put away. Blog readers had sent me things. I have bought things. All of it had been thrown on the counter and left. None of it was important to me in May while Kramer was slowly leaving my life. I wanted to spend all of my time with him.
Now it’s time to do those things that had been set aside.
After he passed…I had so many things that had been just left that needed attention…and many that still do.
Here’s the counter looking better. I’ve yet to decorate this area. It’s okay. I have time. At least I can see the top of the counter.
I kitted up two project once I have a little more time, I’ll be stitching these…
One is Farm Life from Little House Needleworks. It’s hard for me to not love this one….we’ve lived a farm life for so long. It seems so appropriate to stitch.
This next one is the one I think I’ll start first. It’s called Prairie Life by Heartstring Samplery.
The saying on this says:
“The real things haven’t changed. It is still best to be honest and truthful to be happy with simple pleasures and have courage when things go wrong.”
This is a VERY good saying for me in my current situation. The sampler is inspired by the saying from Laura Ingalls Wilder. I honestly don’t think I could pick a better saying to express how I really feel right now. So..I think once things settle down, that this would be the PERFECT thing for me to stitch.
The other day Karl said to me, “Mom what would it take for you to go to the sewing room and sew? I think you need to.”
I have so many other things right now that I want to tackle. I want to fix the living room before the new furniture gets here. I have some more outside jobs I want to tackle. I want to wrap things up at the antique booth.
My kids have a special talent that they can sit in chaos and still do their hobby or watch television. I just can’t truly relax unless things are a bit in order…by no means am I a neat freak or a cleany poo-poo girl. I just can’t do chaos.
More than even I have a desire to finish some of the things Kramer wanted done. I guess it’s my memorial to him…so that takes priority for me. It’s my way of working through things I’m sure.
After reading all the notes and cards that people have sent me, I’ve learned so much. People have talked or their husband’s passing or the passing of a loved one. I have observed a couple things…
I think some people dealing want to hold onto the exact way of life that they had when their loved one was there. They want the clothes to stay in the drawers. They don’t want to paint as the color on the wall was one they picked together. They don’t want to fix or change anything as that would require they pick some things on their own…then they are reminded the person is gone.
I’m pretty much the opposite right now. Kramer and I had so many things that we planned for and wanted. Now that he’s not here, I feel like it’s my job to carry on with the plans to make the house we dreamed of. So I do…So I work to see some of those things happen. For me, it I guess it still feels like our project..like our dream.
Everyone has said that people all deal with death a little differently. It’s so true. I see that even with our kids.
So this weekend Craig (who I think is dealing with death like I do) and I tackled the living room….I’ll tell you more about that in tonight’s post.