Since I’m off from doing childcare with COVID-19, I’m finding that I’m learning a few things…here’s a little list of things I’ve learned:
1- I don’t mind patching and fixing things. I actually find it rewarding when I have time. Before the project would sit in my way for a couple weeks before I finally found some time to tackle it. By the time I did I had berated myself a dozen times because I didn’t have it fixed. Lately, I’ve been just fixing things right away and it makes things much less painless. I don’t mind it and I’m not berating myself.
2-Two people don’t use that much toilet paper- especially when one it a guy and he is working. When I first heard that the kids would be out of school and thought I’d have them all here and that there was a toilet paper shortage, I was worried. The kids go through a lot of toilet paper. Plus, I remember reading that Bonnie Hunter said that it averaged out to a person using one roll and half while staying at her Inn, I was initially wondering if I would have trouble getting toilet paper. I didn’t go on a run to get some. I normally have a dozen rolls upstairs and downstairs. But, I did worry. I’ve been off from childcare for a 6 weeks….I still have a healthy supply of toilet paper.
3-Speaking of consumption being much less…GROCERIES!! Karl went out last weekend and did the shopping at the grocery store. It was $29. WHAT?!?!? I’ve never only spent $29 in a grocery store. With the childcare kids here I normally spent $650 a month in groceries. I can’t believe how little we get by on now…that and I don’t feed all my adult children as they aren’t coming home. Oh my, I had no idea. One more thing…I discovered I don’t drink milk. A half gallon could last Karl and I a month…
4-I am so blessed. I knew this before but I didn’t know it in other ways…. People have asked if I needed anything. I don’t. I thought I would want to be on the computer shopping as I couldn’t go to town. I’m not. I’m content with what is here. I really have an amazing stash of projects and things I can keep busy with and I love the projects that I have…what a blessing!
5-I love quiet time. I always used to love quiet time ..but then I thought it was because I was on overload all day with childcare kids running and squealing day in and day out but it’s not. I’ve found I just love quiet time….what I mean is, time with nothing on. No TV. No radio. No audiobook. I’m content to just think…or lose myself not thinking of anything at all.
6-I really do love having a dog.
Ever since Halloween I’ve been dealing with either a sick dog or a overactive puppy. Both Ruby and Rosie were a lot of work. As Ruby got worse and worse I started to wonder if I really wanted another dog. Dogs bring joy but that comes with an awful lot of heartache too. Having a puppy on top of having childcare kids was an awful lot. Rosie got short suited. Now that it’s just me and her during the day, she gets so much more attention and is much happier…me too. I’m back to loving being a dog owner…most of the time.
7-I used to say I hated television. I’ve found I actually like it. I’ve been doing it more with Rosie on my lap and cross stitching at night. I’ve found I love Acorn Television, a subscription channel.
It’s a great way to wind down. I don’t think I used to do much winding down before. I was so busy jumping from thing to thing to thing trying to squish so much into a day. I’m learning it’s okay to not cram my day full of things. No way do I want to watch television all day but one episode or even two if it’s a good show is great to wind down, cross stitch to, and snuggle Rosie up with too.
8-My house is not messy when no childcare kids are here. I used to spend so much time cleaning house. It was too much. Cleaning and sorting toys happened all day long. Toilets got cleaned every day. Vacuuming happened every day and DISHES!! Oh my. It was a never ending cycle. I easily ran the dishwasher twice a day and even then all of the dishes didn’t always get done. Now…we run it every other day…and vacuum once a week…Oh my. What a change. So much time has been freed up.
9-I can choose what I want to do. Before, I rarely chose. I just did the next thing that had to be done. When a baby had a diaper that needed changing there is no choice. It just gets done. When the kids are acting up, find something to keep them busy. When the bus comes, make a snack. It was all so routine, there was little choice in the matter. I lived a life of reacting. Then after childcare I had to hurry to get the house cleaned up…then supper then blog then squeeze in some sewing then bed. There was little time to think and choose what I wanted to do. What a change. For quite awhile I was sewing masks and that was much the same but now that I’m not sewing masks, what a difference. I have freedom of choice and the craziest thing of all…in the midst of all that before, I didn’t even realize I wasn’t getting to choose. I was so busy just doing the next thing. Having freedom to choose is a new thing for me.
10-I am content with myself. I always wondered what on earth I would ever do with my time if I didn’t have childcare. I was always frustrated with myself. Frustrated that I didn’t take time to get out and take a walk and then if I did, frustrated that I spent so much time walking when I should have been _____(fill in the blank). Now I just walk or don’t walk depending on if I feel like it, if Kalissa and boys are free, Rosie wants to go or the weather…no beating myself up. I’m kind of liking it….it’s growing on me. I’m finding I won’t have a problem filling up time should I retire one day….I’m finding I really like a more laid back kind of life.
The saying above has really had me thinking. I don’t like what Covid has brought to this world…but I’m trying really hard to find a silver lining and some of the discoveries I’ve made already, just might be it.
So how about you? Has Covid-19 brought you to any realizations??