So here’s the latest on my cancer saga. I say saga as I learned that my cancer had return in fall of 2018….but we’ve waited and tested and waited and tested again and again and again…but we have done nothing but wait. I guess you could say I’m in limbo.
There was talk about surgery. There was talk about giving me the radioactive iodine treatment again. After a pet scan, diet and full body scan, ultrasound, bloodwork and two needle biopsies on different days, the consensus is to wait….again.
We will wait until February time frame.
February as it is 6 months after I have my last scan. This will give them something tangible to compare that rogue lymph node behind my trachea to grow or shrink.
If my bloodwork is up again, and if that lymph node behind my trachea gets larger…. I’ll be having surgery. If after it is removed surgically and pathology shows it is cancerous, then I’d get radioactive iodine treatment. If not, we come up with another plan. The thought is that we can’t get to that lymph node behind my trachea….so if we look and see the size has increased, that might indicate that’s where the cancer is.
It’s getting old but I’m okay with it. Slightly sad the biggest chunk of this all can’t be tackled in this calendar year while I’ve met out of pocket expense for insurance. I’m sure I’ll meet next year’s deductible too but still…I wanted to be done with all of this in the 2019 calendar year. I wanted to be able to write one year, 2019, off as being terrible and move on with my life…but now it drags on into 2020.
I am thankful that I know what the plan is…honestly, that’s mostly what I wanted. I feel like I’ve been living life on hold. Now I know that we can get through the holidays without me having surgery. I know I won’t have radioactive iodine during this time. I know I don’t have to worry about it for two months or so. I also know that all the things I’ve been putting off…deep cleaning and organizing needs to get done now. I always figured that if I got radioactive iodine that I’d have all the time to work on the cleaning and project stuff…well no more waiting on that. It’s time.