Some people have said I’m a little fast when it comes to getting rid of Kramer’s things…I’ve ignored all of that and did what I felt best after some careful consideration.
That garage sale stuff, that was easy to let go. Things like the snowblower, weed eater and leaf blower were all stuff I couldn’t easily handle. Letting go of them was no problem. The last thing any of us wants is for me to injure myself using something that isn’t right for me and the equipment we had really wasn’t right for me.
The projects he intended to “get to” someday…those were easy decisions too. I kept a couple that had good memories attached to them. They were also things that given a little “studying up” or coercion, I might be able to fix it or get some help from Craig to finish.
Kramer’s clothes….that’s easy. They are in the basement…I left them there for now. Not because it would bother me…more because I don’t know if I might make memory items with them for the grandkids. I just don’t know yet. I hate doing projects like memory projects…but I might be able to get myself to do it…or the girls might want to it. Kramer had minimal clothes…seriously I am relatively sure all of it would fit in two boxes.
Kramer had tools in his work area…sanders, planers, turning lathe. All of that I’ll keep. It will be here if the kids want to use it….or if I want to use it. I am not ruling myself out of the equation just yet. I figure if I can sew and make a quilt, I can likely figure out how to use the larger shop equipment if the mood struck me.
A harder decision for me has been The ‘Burb. The ‘Burb is Kramer’s old 2000 Chevy Suburban. It’s seen its day. I hit a deer with it (or rather the deer hit me) back when it was our family vehicle. Kramer hit a deer with it. The front lights and grill are all working but it’s a patched up mess.
Inside…it’s gross…Seriously, there is no better word for it than gross.
The inside STINKS. The seat is torn up. There is dirt and dust EVERYWHERE. Kramer used this as his work vehicle…and Kramer was no neat freak!!
The kids have been full of opinions about it.
-Sell both of your vehicles and get one nice reliable one.
-So and so could use us for whatever.
-Take it to the junkyard. It’s so dirty.
For the last couple months, I’ve thought about it. I made a decision. I’m keeping it. The ‘Burb is so old. I’d only get junk price for it.
As is, license on it cost $35 a year….Insurance is minimal. I think $190 a year or something like that. That means for about $20 a month I can keep it.
So few in the last month, I’ve already needed it several times. The “check engine” light came on in the pickup so that was in the shop getting checked out. I had an errand I needed to do so I took the ‘Burb.
Karl took my truck to Texas. He had to go back and clean out his apartment and needed a truck to get his bed and furniture home. I needed to go to town for groceries so I took the ‘Burb.
Several times already the ‘Burb gave me freedom and independence. I didn’t have to rely on Kalissa to help me out. Would I buy a vehicle for this purpose? NO. But it’s already here….so keeping it, I think, is a good idea.
Those are all the rational ideas…but I’ll be honest here. It’s a bit of my security blanket. It’s dumb but it is so my connection to Kramer. It smells like the farm. The air conditioning doesn’t work so I have to roll the windows down. Driving it is the closest thing to hanging with him on a ‘farmer date’ as I’m ever going to get anymore. It’s crazy but the second I get in, I start driving slower…I take things a little more easy, just like we did when we were out checking crops.
I also feel a lot like this song….
So…long story short. I’m keeping The ‘Burb.