I’ve started working on having Thankful Thursday posts…it’s just a random post of things that happened during my week that I am thankful for. It started after I’ve been reading The Frugal Girl blog and she has a feature called Thankful Thursday. This week I am thankful for how far I’ve come on my cancer journey
On Saturday I start my oral chemo and that begins the next couple of months of unknowns. Will I get sick? How will I feel? Will I get those terrible sores in my mouth? There are so many unknowns…but there are a lot of knowns too. I’m working really hard to be thankful for those knowns and appreciate them rather than focus on the unknowns.
Here is an example…
I follow a Radioactive iodine-resistant Thyroid Cancer group on Facebook. Today someone posted this picture.
She is claustrophobic and doing scans is hard for her. She was celebrating a new machine. The one you see in the picture above.
This is the old kind in the picture below.
For someone with the claustrophobia, the first machine is much better.
For me, I’ve been there and done this so many times, I don’t think a lot about the machine and the scans anymore (unless it’s an over one-hour MRI).
The full-body machines don’t bother me. I’ve learned to just do it. Typically I sing church hymns in my head when the 40-minute scans are happening. The first time and the unknown of it all was scary especially when they asked if I wanted lorazapan to get through it. I didn’t use it and made it through just fine even though the machine is only about 2″ from my face.
I’m so thankful IVs don’t bother me…I can stitch right through them and rather than think about the IV, I think about how much I can accomplish on my cross-stitch piece while I’m waiting…and I’ve learned to drink lots of water before I go in so I’m an easier stick.
Parking and the logistics of getting my appointments are not worrisome. If one ramp is full, I can easily go to another.
It wasn’t that way at first. Now, easy-peasy.
I know my doctor. I know my nurse. I know what to expect…and what not to expect from them. That makes it all easier.
I know my local doctor will stand by me and advocate for me if she needs to. She’s awesome. That is something wonderful I know.
I’ve been through my diet before. There is a Facebook group for people going through the low-iodine diet. There are so many people on there asking questions and second-guessing the foods they can eat. I’ve done it long enough to know that it’s easier to crack fresh eggs and throw away the yolks than it is to try to find egg whites in a carton that don’t contain iodized salt. I’ve already been through this…I know now and there aren’t as many unknowns.
I am so thankful for all the things I already know about this treatment. There is great comfort in the known…yes there are still some unknowns but nothing I can’t figure out or navigate through. I have some experience under my belt. After all, I’ve been doing this for eight years…eight years of turning unknowns into knowns. There is some real comfort in that.
Today I’m thankful for my experience in this cancer journey…I’m thankful I’m still here turning uncomfortable unknowns into comfortable knowns. I hope I can keep doing that for a long time. There is some real comfort in being a veteran in dealing with cancer.
Many thanks to everyone who has sent cards and well wishes my way. It is so appreciated. It’s great having you all along on this journey with me.