Life is interesting. Some days it’s more interesting than others.
Hubby had something going on with his finger and went to the doctor in December to check it out. Then had a follow up appointment in January on the 23rd.
Leading up to the 23rd I noticed that Hubby wasn’t quite himself…he was sleeping more. He seemed more winded. I just had a funny feeling about things. So I started hounding him asking that he get a Chest CT scan. When I got mine in November I saw how easy it was to get a scan done. I thought he should get one. I hounded enough to the point that he got frustrated with me. For some reason, it was just extra important to me so I kept hounding. On the way to the doctor on the 23rd he told me he was going to ask for one. I was so relieved.
On the next morning on the 24th the computer dinged. It was an email. I checked it and it was a test result from the doctor. They had done blood work and other things so I quick looked at the computer and SHOCK! It was his Chest CT Scan result and it said he likely has cancer in his right lung. Oh my word. Who wants that news? Who ever wants to be the first to know the news? I honestly thought the results were blood test results. I was completely blindsided. I had nagged and nagged for him to get the test expecting that it would give me peace of mind that he was fine. I really never thought the opposite and that he’d actually have cancer.
It was hard. Do I call Hubby and tell him? Is the doctor going to call him? What do I do? I had a house full of childcare kids and I just read the news that my husband likely has cancer.
I called Kalissa. I told her. She said she’d come right over. Thank heavens she wasn’t working. I called Kelli. I needed someone to help me figure out what to do about telling Hubby.
Do I go to the farm? Do I call him? Do I wait from him to come home? AHHH. Ugh.
Just then Hubby called me. The first words out of his mouth were “What do you know?” It is a saying he says to me all the time. I swallowed hard. I still wasn’t set on how I was going to tell him. I stalled and said, “What do you know?” He ended up telling me that the doctor’s nurse had called and they wanted him back in that afternoon for a further test because something showed up on the scan. I was so relieved. He knew. AH. So relieved.
Hubby came home from work a few hours later. I was still a bit of wreck. Every thought had ran through my mind…and Kalissa’s. UGH.
So Hubby started talking to me and I realized the doctor’s nurse didn’t tell him the results of the test so I had to tell him after all. In the end, I think it was better that it came from me.
We ended up at the doctor. Kalissa watched the childcare kiddos. This time they did a CT Scan with contrast. The doctor, who we can’t say enough good things about, came in on his day off to only see Hubby. We waited a half hour to see him but what a cool guy to come in for one patient.
From there we were told he needs to move on to Lacrosse to start seeing specialists. A PET scan was scheduled for Wednesday of this week.We had the PET scan done and then were on to see the doctor.
Here’s what we found out….
It likely is cancer. There are no other spots or concerns besides the original mass a maybe a lymph node or two near. There is a remote possibility it could be an infection…but likely cancer. There was not really any more news. The doctor suggested a biopsy and had an opening in the schedule to do it the next day so we stayed overnight and that happened yesterday.
I spent LOTS of time in the waiting room working on this….I was stitching my life into words….”HOPE”.
After the biopsy the doctor didn’t completely rule out an infection but he said it would be very, very remote.
We go back to Lacrosse on Monday. We see a team of doctors and have several appointments in the afternoon. At that point, we’ll know more and will share more. It’s been quite a week around here…so many thoughts have ran through our head….so many. We told extended family and friends yesterday and today is the day to tell all of you.
We already know many of you will be supportive and prayerful for our family as we jump into the muck of Hubby’s lung cancer. We are so appreciative of all of you. Please don’t worry if a post here or there is missed. I promise it’s probably only an error in scheduling. I know all of you care about us and I won’t leaving you wondering. Besides, I’ve said the blog is a bit of my journal and trust me, I’m going to need to journal about this. As you all know, Hubby is the light of my life. Long ago when we were dating my Dad said to me that he thought I was “chasing Hubby”. I admit I was. But I’m not done chasing. I’ll keep fighting and chasing to keep him right here with me.
Thank You from all the Kramers….