I am so happy to see this year come to a close. I’ve learned more things in the last year than I ever wanted to know. Topics like lung cancer, breast cancer, chemotherapy, radiation and funerals…Yep. They were never topics I ever wanted to learn a single thing about….but I did.
I found out LOTS that I didn’t know I didn’t know about.
1-Most people are good
2-If I truly need help, people will come out in droves
3-I can conquer my fears
4-I can cry buckets of tears and still have more to cry
5-I can be happy and still grieving
6-Grief can sneak up at the oddest moments
7-Babies can be the great healer
8-Love lives on
9-Puppies, even naughty ones can be fun
10-It’s okay to let go
11-It’s okay to hold on
12-So many things are actually just trivial
13-Worry isn’t necessary- A way through will be provided
14-Good family is everything
15-My kids turned into adults
16-I love my job
17-I joking said quilting is therapy- I learned it is
18-I learned who ran away from me and who ran to me when I needed help
19-I learned I’d rather love deep and get hurt than to not love
20-I learned its okay to be okay and being okay is enough
Although 2019 was a super hard year, I can’t help but look and appreciate that I’m still moving forward.
As 2020 comes our family will have a lot more firsts…
January 17th Kayla and Spencer’s due date
January 24th the anniversary of finding Kramer’s tumor
April 7th Buck and Lora’s baby is due
June 2nd the anniversary of Kramer’s death
I am so thankful there are some babies added in there for a little cushioning. I’m so thankful for the babies that are here. They, at times, with their sweet little faces and ability to cuddle, have done more for me than I’ve ever done for them.
I’m finding that there are a lot of cushions in my life. The other day a girl that lives down the block stopped and gave me some goodies as she was offering sympathy at the passing of Ruby. She was so sweet…and what a great mom to help her do that!
One of the local catering places in town, Lynch BBQ, gave out meals to people in town. I’m guessing mine came as I made the widow list.
…and this happened…
I had carolers.
I am always impressed with our little town and the outpouring of support that has come our way throughout this past year…little cushions that help soften the hard blows.
So for this new year, for me, I’m hoping for a few less hard lessons. I’m hoping that my cancer gets found. I’m hoping for family time, puppy time and quilting time. I’m also hoping that I can do some cushioning for others.
So many people have a “word of the year”…for me, it’s “cushioning”. I know..it’s the strangest word anyone has ever picked for their “word of the year”…but I think it’s so important, so necessary.
I want to focus on and appreciate the little things people do for me. I want to be the cushion for others…
-a few more thank you cards
-a few more gift cards
-a few more pay it forwards
-a few more gifts of time
-a few more letters
-a few more thoughtful gestures
-a few more lunches out
-a few more moments of my time given away
I can do that….I can provide a little more cushioning in the lives of others. I think that’s a great way to move forward in 2020.
Thank you a million times over for all of you who have been a cushion for me…sent a note, sent a gift, left a comment, become my friend…it has been the balm to my soul over the last year. 2020 is a year for me to do those same things for others.
I’m hoping and praying that all of you find a few cushions in your life…or that you might reach out and be the cushion for someone else. There are lots of people who are going down some hard roads and a cushion here and there, might be just what they need. I know I needed it.