Today’s the 24th and another season of Christmas will soon be past. So far, I’ve done really good this year. In the past, Christmas’ have been hard for me as sometimes a touch of depression catches me. It’s nothing serious…nothing I can’t trudge through but come it does. (See this post if you missed that)
I don’t know if it’s turning 50 (and getting a “this is me- like it or lump attitude”) or finally starting to admit that the holidays don’t always make me happy has been the cure to me feeling better, but whatever it is, I’m thankful. It’s nice to not be feeling bad when so many others are happy.
As I’m baking some cookies today (my tradition) I can’t help but go back over a conversation I had with a friend earlier this month. She asked if we were putting up a Christmas tree….(okay, I know…many of you are gasping at the thought of a house without a Christmas tree) but for years, we haven’t put up a tree. She thought being we were at this house and have lots more room-we might….But we’re not. We have a nativity….
I tried to explain it to her….it goes something like this….
I think each person who celebrates Christmas, or any holiday for that fact, has a moment or a couple moments during the holiday where something clicks. It’s a moment when you stop and say…now it’s Christmas. For many people, I think it’s when they purchase the tree…for some it’s when the tree is first lit..for others it’s something entirely different.
If you read from this post I wrote last year, you know I didn’t grow up with a tree. Hubby didn’t grow up with a tree either. He said he can remember a couple years that they did have a Christmas tree. The schools at the time had a live tree in each classroom. On the last day of school the teacher took the decorations off and asked if anyone wanted the tree. Hubby drug it home via the school bus…thus his family had a tree.
There is no sentiment for either of us in relationship to a Christmas tree “giving life” to Christmas. As Christians, neither of us have found anywhere that the bible suggests a tree is necessary…so we just don’t do it. For me, and Hubby too, dealing with a tree and decorations is a lot time and work for something we just don’t get excited about or gives us “meaning” to Christmas.
For me that magic moment announcing Christmas in not a Christmas tree. The moment for both Hubby and I love is at candle light church when the lights go down, the candles are lit and the congregation sings Silent Night. That, to us, is Christmas. It’s a moment we treasured with our families as kids and one we always did with our own family. I love Christmas Eve candlelight church. There’s truly not a better time to go to church.
We don’t begrudge anyone who loves a Christmas Tree…we just don’t. We are happy that others “find Christmas” wherever it is for them and hope in turn they can understand us.
So Merry Christmas Eve. I’m doing what I always do…a little baking and cooking so tomorrow is a little easier. There won’t be a lot of kids home but that’s fine- we plan it that way. We had our family Christmas with everyone last weekend. We try to let the kids celebrate with their in-laws on Christmas Day. I love the low key day where we play a few games of Chess or cards..nibble on treats and sometimes go to a movie. It’s one of the few days we really do nothing. I love that…and for us, that’s Christmas too.