I’ve been in a big debate in my head on how I’ve been living my life and have decided I need to make some changes. The beauty of it all is that it’s not too late to make some changes…and I think the changes will improve my quality of life.
I love everything I’m doing and I want to do it all…but, there are only so many hours in a day. This last week was the one that really made me see that. I’ve been debating for some time but between having a few days off over Christmas and having the busy week I did last week, I can see that I need to do a little less all the way around. Christmas time was great…I had an extra day off and had time that I was doing a lot of things that I love. I was so less pressured and regimented. This week I was scrapping by to get the most out of every minute.
With my life now I am up at 5:30 in the morning. To work by 6:40 am, working until 5- 5:15. Then home by 5:30 or so every evening then I’m home with the dogs, making supper, scrambling to write some blog posts. grab a shower, do a few house things like dishes and then if I’m lucky, I get to stitch for about 40 minutes before I head up the stairs to bed at 10:15. I don’t have any time for any deviation from that schedule. I do that four days a week. It’s too much.
With work go-go-go and when I get home it’s go-go-go, it’s too much.
On top of that, once I have some days off, I’m trying to run around here to do things to take care of the house, foster pups, and get something done so that I have content to blog about. There’s always a constant grind for me…Do you have blog posts written? When are you writing blog posts…what are you going to write…
There have been a few days that I really didn’t want to fully finish a cross stitch piece, but I had to have something to blog about so I made myself finish it. When I’m doing that, my hobbies and things I enjoy turn into work…not my fun hobbies I can do to relax. I want to relax when I’m crafting…not feel pressured to perform.
When I first started blogging that’s how things were, if something happened, I blog about it. If nothing happened, I didn’t blog. Then I started blogging every day. That was still okay. Then I quit my other jobs and only blogged twice a day. That was good too…but now, maintaining both my job, my life, and the blog is a lot.
I’ve found myself not doing some things like wiping off the kitchen counters or changing the bed sheets as often just so I can fit everything into a day. I’ve been cutting corners. I’ve been needing to see an estate planner but have I done it? No. There aren’t enough hours in my day. UGH. And I’m not dinking around. I’m working and doing from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.
So…I can’t stop being a mom and grandma. I can’t stop caring for my dogs. I can’t stop maintaining my house. I can’t stop working at the vet office…I love it and I need the money. I have something I can do that will make life easier and more enjoyable for me. I can write fewer blog posts each week and that’s what I’m going to do.
I am not going to quit blogging. I love blogging but I want it to be more of a hobby again…not a job.
In the end, I think you might enjoy reading the blog more as well. Without HAVING to write two blog posts each day I might have more time to sew or possibly film a Sew with Jo which I know many of you enjoy. (I might have time to change the sheets more often which I might enjoy) Some days there will still be two blog posts…some days there will only be one. We’ll see what comes my way to blog about.
This week I came home tired from work on Friday and didn’t even write one blog post. Then Saturday got away from me with things I had to do so I didn’t even sit down to the computer to start to write this until 8:30 at night. At 8:30 at night, I shouldn’t be at the computer…so I’m also making a new rule for myself. I’m only stitching, sewing, or doing something that I really want to do once the clock hits 8:30 pm. No more “have to do things” after 8:30 pm.
I think this is good for me especially as I approach my cancer treatment time. It will be good for me to not feel pressured that I have to write. Who knows…after that, I might pick up and write more, but I don’t think I will. The prospect of not feeling pressured that I HAVE to write two blog posts sounds wonderful. Doing whatever I want to do after 8:30 pm each night sounds glorious.
I need to find a better work/home balance. I think this plan just might work. I hope you all understand…