Last week I wrote a blog post that explained my confusion and asked for some advice from readers concerning my upcoming medical procedure when I take the Radioactive Iodine treatment for my thyroid cancer.
I got a question from Dorothy, “So why are you asking us who have no knowlege of what you are going through for advise ??? And even if we do know what is happening with you, it may have not been the same with “us”. Please ask your Dr these questions—and as for searcrhing the internet for answers, you’ve got to be kidding–ASK YOUR DR.”
Here’s a little bit about me. I am a researcher by nature. I went to college and fluctuated between being a elementary education teacher or being an English teacher. I took lots of writing classes and did lots of research papers. Researching just became a way of life for me. I research everything. I ask for opinions about everything. I collect information from everywhere I know to….that’s me. I strongly believe in doctors but I don’t put them on a pedestal and think they are the only source of information. I gather…I weigh…I analyze….more than all of that, I question. It’s me. I am a gatherer. It’s who I am. I come by in naturally. My mom was a gatherer too.
I have a print that I have been looking for. It’s this one below. I feel it’s symbolic of me. I gather.
I am aware that there are other people who do not do that. They are not gatherers. I know they go to the doctor. The doctor says, “do this”, and they do it, story over, problem over, the end. I am happy that they got what they needed…but that’s not me. That’s now how my brain works.
I believe this is my body. I believe this is my life. I believe that there is choice in this for me. I am not someone who blindly trusts. I question. I gather. I weight. I analyze. In the end, will I follow the prescribed treatment the doctor gives?…likely. But it won’t happen until I feel informed and I make the final decision.
Through these last few months I’ve realized that I live in a global world. There is a blog reader who is a regular reader who I know is going through just what I am going through right now only she’s about a month further along in the procedure than I am. I have gotten so many emails from others who have said their husband just went through it…their sister went through it….or they themselves went through it a few years ago. All of these people are great resource. All of them have a valid experience that I can gather information from.
The comment left reads, “it may not have been the same with “us””…. You’re EXACTLY right. That’s why I asked the questions. I’m collecting the information.
I want to gather everything up that I can. For me, this is serious. This is my life.
For me the doctor can tell me all sorts of side effects…but I’m curious. She can tell me clinical things, but I’ve come to know that clinical is not always life though.
As for searching the internet…as a gatherer, I do. When I was told I could get my thyroid taken out being the nodules were so large, immediately in the office before we knew it was cancer, I said take them out. I had to make a decision based on what the doctor said and I did make it there on the spot-BUT- I also went home and read the pamphlet they gave me. I also read all I could about it on the internet….No, I am not at some chat room…no, I am not on Wikipedia. There are good websites out there with solid information. I am so glad that I did. For me, the gathering reinforced that the decision I made quickly was the right decision. It also lead me to ask more questions that could be answered at the next doctor’s visit. It also made me a more informed patient the next time I went to the doctor. Like I said, I am not good at blindly following. This is what works for me. This brings me peace of mind.
I believe knowledge is power. I believe that knowledge can come from MANY sources beyond doctors.
Rest assured, my questions and concerns are being answered by medical professionals as well. I’m a gatherer. I wouldn’t bypass an important source.
I’ve said before that the blog is my journal…it’s me. It’s my life. At the time I wrote the post, it’s what I wanted to say…it’s what I wanted to ask. It’s information I wanted to gather. There are other people years from now, who are gatherers, who will stumble across the post. They will likely read the blog and say, “I have the same question”….”I wondered the same thing”….”I’m glad I’m not the only one”….”I was confused by that too”. The blog post was for them and it was for me, all of us gatherers.
I am writing this post for people like Dorothy who say, “So why are you asking us who have no knowlege of what you are going through for advise???”…I want you to understand that there are gatherers in the world.