Do you all remember the television show Dallas?
I sure do. I was a huge fan. I was in highschool for most of my watching years. There were so many reasons why I loved the show. It was a soap opera set in the evening and I would watch every episode, often when I was babysitting. I loved J.R. Ewing, as I remember the actor being in the television show “I Dream of Jeanie”. I just loved all of the drama and action that comes with a soap opera.
Here’s what Wikipedia said about the show, “Dallas is an American prime time television soap opera that aired on CBS from April 2, 1978, to May 3, 1991. The series revolves around a wealthy and feuding Texas family, the Ewings, who own the independent oil company Ewing Oil and the cattle-ranching land of Southfork. The series originally focused on the marriage of Bobby Ewing and Pamela Barnes, whose families were sworn enemies with each other. As the series progressed, Bobby’s older brother, oil tycoon J.R. Ewing, became the show’s breakout character, whose schemes and dirty business became the show’s trademark. When the show ended in May 3, 1991, J.R. was the only character to have appeared in every episode.
The show was famous for its cliffhangers, including the “Who shot J.R.?” mystery. The 1980 episode “Who Done It” remains the second highest rated prime-time telecast ever.”
Oh my. I so remember the “who shot J.R. Ewing” cliffhanger. I was so into watching the show. I was one of those people who bought the “who shot J.R. Ewing” shirts. Do you remember these…
Yep I was really into the show. I watched religiously. I so remember all of us going to school and asking “who do you think shot J.R.?” Do you want to know what’s really funny. To this day, I can remember the hype but can’t remember who actually shot him.
I quit watching after what is known as “the dream season”. I checked with Wikipedia and that was season 9. The plot for the show for season 9 was just bad. People left the show-Bobby Ewing died in car crash…people were sleeping with people they shouldn’t have (worse than normal). It was just a bad season. Well I did stick around to see the first episode of season #10.
In that episode, the show starts with Pam, Bobbie’s wife, sleeping in bed…
…she wakes up and her husband… isn’t gone. He is in the shower.
He didn’t leave her. He didn’t die in the car crash. The entire terrible last season didn’t happen. She had only dreamed it.
The whole show and episode came back to me the other day as I was thinking back on the year I had. I can’t tell how many times I think back and question this or that. I sometimes think how did that all happen? Did it happen at all? Is Kramer just at work?
About two weeks ago, I was thinking about the anniversary of finding out that my husband, Kramer, had cancer. I’ll be honest. I started wishing I was Pam Ewing. I couldn’t help but wish that televisions show could be reality. I couldn’t help but wish I was Pam Ewing. I could wake to hear the shower running and open the shower door and see my husband standing there.
But alas, that was not my reality when I woke this morning. The last year did happen. My husband did die.
Today is the anniversary of Kramer finding out he had cancer…and was the start of the last 129 days I had with him.
A year ago, if I was to imagine where I would be on this day. I never dreamed he would be dead. That didn’t cross my mind for a moment. I was sure we could kick it. I was sure surgery would remove it. I was sure this was just a bump in the long road we had together. But, that was not to be.
I woke up this morning and learned I am not Pam Ewing. The past year wasn’t a dream.
Love a little harder on people in your life today. You don’t know if they will be here a year from now. You don’t know if your days with them are numbered. You don’t know, if like me, you’ll be wishing you were Pam Ewing.