Stash Report

When I was through town I hit up the thrift store.  Lately that 15 minutes while I run through the store is the most time I do anything frivolous.  That’s all okay…I honestly am not complaining, I’m more saying that I was thankful for that simple 15 minutes.

I had Carver with me so it was only a quick stop.  We looked at toys and found him a John Deere tractor….50 cents, which was enough of a bribe for him to let me peacefully look at whatever I wanted.  I headed to the fabric of course.  Just because I haven’t had much sewing time, doesn’t mean I’m not dreaming about sewing time.

Two bags came home with me….One was $1.50- the other was $2.  I wasn’t sure about the $2 one until I flipped it over….

John Deere fabric.  Yep that one came home.

I opened it up to find this…. Continue reading


Saturday Hospital Update

Well…We are getting closer to going home.  We are both excited about that.  We have the pain under control when we are here at the hospital.  The problem is that some of these meds are IV meds.  We can’t go home with an we have to transfer the med that are IV to pills that can be taken at home.  Nothing is quite the same or in quite the same dosages.  So we experiment and poor Kramer in the guinea pig.

Today was his best day ever.  Last night was his best night but still he did tank a little in the morning.  They ended up needing to give him an IV drug so….ugh.  No going home today.  So we try again tonight.

We had company with us Friday and Saturday….Seeing the boys is just what we both needed.  Grandma’s “Carver Bucket” was running empty.  I’m so used to seeing him every day that we both needed a little recharge.

To be honest, I think Kalissa has gotten used to me having Carver some so she needed a break from Carver!!  He’s all of two and a handful.

I’m so thankful that Kramer is getting better at letting us take pictures.  In  the past he’s complained.  Now he’s better.

What do you think of the Hawaiian shirt??  It’s not his usual.  Plaid or striped western shirts have been his preference.  When we left the house for the ER last Sunday our VERY last thought was for clothes for him so I was sent to WalMart to get a few things.  As you know, WalMart does not have snap western shirts.  Before I left the hospital I said, “WalMart doesn’t have western shirts.  Would a Hawaiian shirt be okay?”  He said yes.

I ended up finding some pajama bottom pants to match.  I love the outfit.  EVERYONE at the hospital did too.  Seriously every person that came in said something about his shirt from the chaplain, to the nurses, to physical therapy to the CNAs.   They all thought is was a pretty cool shirt to be wearing in the hospital.

I ended up having to back to Wal-Mart to get a few things…I got him another Hawaiian shirt.  He’ll be styling that’s for sure.

Here’s a picture of Kalissa’s family with Kramer. Continue reading


Friday Hospital Update

We finally got Kramer’s pain under control to a tolerable level at about 11:00am today.  As I write it’s about 3pm.  He’s super sleepy now. I think the fight against the pain pooped him out.  He says if he stays still the pain is around a 3 on a scale of one to ten.  He said he can be content and live with that if he has to but what he had this morning was terrible.

Lindsay his pain doc is awesome.  Really awesome.  She has been to his room four times today working to get the right combination of meds to help.

Kramer did get better in time to go to radiation.  That was a big blessing.  As of today he FIVE left.  YAHOO!!  We are getting so close.  I can’t wait.

His best guesstimate as to when we can go home is now on Sunday.  He can’t go home until the pain can be controlled on oral medication.  Right now the pain is under control but not on oral meds.  UGH.

So here’s my report: Continue reading


Friday Morning @ the Hospital

Well I was hoping to report to you that we would be going home today.  Well that’s not what is happening.  Overnight Kramer tanked and the pain got out of control again.  No fun at all.

We are pretty much back to square one trying to figure out how to get the pain under control so we can go home.  It is so hard to watch him be in pain..nothing I can do but advocate.  All morning appointments with physical therapy and occupational therapy have been cancelled.  The hope is to get the pain under enough control that he can get to radiation today.  We need to get that if at all possible.  They are super great over there and if Kramer’s not well enough for the noon appointment, hopefully they can move the appointment to afternoon.

As for me…
I’m off to do my blood test.  Then the scan to see if my thyroid cancer has flared back enough so it’s detectable.

I have a doctor appointment at 12:30 and I’ll know the results then.  At this point, it’s really hard to even care about myself.  I have no worry or concern about it at all.  Whatever it will be it will be.  I never imagined I could have so much “other” going on in my life that I could get to the point that I don’t even care if I have cancer again or not.   All of my thoughts and worries are with Kramer.

Our daughter Kayla is here with me today.  As we were walking over from the hotel we were talking about how we see life so different now.  Last fall I was bothered thinking the purse I bought should probably be changed out over winter as it was a more spring time floral purse.  Now I laugh.  Life got so crazy for us the purse never did get changed out and guess what?  Life went on.  I had the purse out all winter long and never changed it out.

Sometimes the big things in life happen and put the whole world into prospective.  My unshaven legs (because I didn’t get a razor packed with) really don’t really matter anymore.

I’ll get an update to you tonight to let you know the scan results…

As always, thanks so much for the prayers, cards, thoughts and gifts you’ve sent our way.  You guys are the best.