I know Thanksgiving isn’t a universal holiday that is celebrated throughout the world but I do think it’s something we all can grab onto and appreciate. What’s better than a day that is set aside for us to take stock in all the good things we have in our lives.
I have a million things to be thankful for this year.
At the top of my list is that I’ve finally become a little more comfortable at where I am at. It’s been 2 1/2 years now since Kramer, my husband, passed away. I’m far from over it, but I feel comfortable with myself now. The chances of me getting all teary-eyed is there but now as strong. When we get together as a family, we can talk about him without feeling devastated. It will never be awesome…but it can be comfortable. I know what to expect…I know the ache is still there but not hot and fresh anymore. It certainly doesn’t mean I don’t miss him…It just means I can miss him without it consuming me.
I have the best family. My kids are great…my grandkids are great…the in-laws are great. In the family department, I hit the jackpot!!
I’m thankful for …all the things I take for granted:
a roof over my head
the means to afford hobbies
people in and out of my home
my job-the kids-the parents
That list could go on forever!!
I know many might look at my life and ask how I can be thankful when I have cancer actively growing in my lungs. Here’s why I am still thankful. I’m even thankful for the cancer.
So much has to come to my life because of my cancer. I’ve learned to be more compassionate for others. I’ve gained the ability to be more empathetic. I’ve learned patience. I’ve actively seen so much kindness and generosity from others. Cancer has taught me that life has an expiration date and that I need to do and say what I need to others now. There might not be time to do it later. I’ve learned to be more forgiving.
As weird as it may sound I truly am thankful for my cancer. More good than bad has come to me through my cancer…Kramer’s cancer, I can’t say that about, but mine I sure can.
Cancer has really made me grow as a person. I like the person I am now and in the past, I couldn’t always say that…who knows, maybe that is partially age too.
Where ever you are in life, I hope you too can find many things to be thankful for…and if you can’t. I hope you can find the courage to make the change so next year at this time, you can have a long list of things to be thankful for.
The Kramer family is all at Buck’s house this year. My goal, I want a picture with all of the grandkids. I’d love one of us all but I don’t know if Buck will have a neighbor that might be able to take one for us. We’ll see. I am pretty sure I’ll at least get one with the grandkids. All of them in one house is going to be pretty crazy…but a whole lot of fun too. Watch for pictures in an upcoming post!! Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours!!